Trusting God

Being in a medical field is never easy. Enrolling in a medical program is a challenge. But I know, this is where I want to be. This is where I am supposed be. 

I used to see my self as an astronaut - flying around and walking on the moon, flipping in a gravity-less space. I love looking at the stars and was so intrigued of the mysteries that lie out there. But that was just a wild dream I am about to let go.( I don't think I can ever let go of that). When I reached high school, many things had changed. My attention was diverted when my love for earth sciences, geology, marine biology, and archaeology,  awakened. I was so sure that this is want I want in my life. I am not the kind of girl who envisioned herself wearing business attires and attending meetings. I saw myself making and enjoying adventures as I continue to live in the world out there. When my high school years were over, I was so confused that I can't decide what to take. Stuck between the things that I love and the notion to be practical. Time was running out for me, summer was about to end and I really have to decide. Told my parents I want to take geology, but they said no because for them it is so impractical. Second option was marine biology, unfortunately, I wasn't able to take the entrance exam for the school offering the program. I really don't know what to do, so I decided that I should give accountancy a try since my mother pushes me for that and for a reason that it offers bigger opportunities upon getting the degree. Luckily, I passed the exam. But deep inside me, I know, this not where I want to go. I love science. I always will and that's one thing I am not ashamed to say. Talked to my parents and told them I will take up chemistry and finally they agreed to it. I went to the school offering the degree with me are the things needed to admit yourself to the school. I already readied myself for that degree however, the administrators of the school told me that they are not opening the program for that academic year. I was so devastated. I don't know what to do next. The administrators had even tried convincing me to take chemical engineering instead of chemistry but my aunt, for some reasons, did not allow me to. And that's when she told me to go the medical laboratory science department and admit myself to the program. And here I am now. Fighting and trying to finish what I've started.

I never thought of taking this path. Even though, I used to like playing doctor when me and my friends used to play when we were younger, I never imagined dealing with sick patients. But being and taking this path, made me realize things, opened up emotions and set up goals I never dreamt I would have. At first, I told my self that this is still a part of science and that I could deal with it somehow. Yet as time passes by, as I learn new things, gain more knowledge, acquire new experiences, it came to me that it is more than that. And I finally told my self, this is where I belong. This is where I want to be. Despite the hardships and all the sacrifices I have to deal and make, I know and I am certain that this will all be worth it in the end.For I know, God did not put me in this place for no reason. He led me here, because He have something great for me. Something that is greater than the plans I have for my self or my parents for me.

What I am trying to say is that, we might not be in places we want to be or in situations we had planned ahead, but know that wherever we are and whatever we are facing, this is for us. That it is what God had planned for everyone of us and that He means no harm. We may stumble and fall, fail many times and experience defeat but we have God. We have Him as our Guide, as our Light and as our Father. And I know, He will lead us to places where we should be. A place where we can use our full potential to help people and glorify His name. We just have to trust Him and all His plans.

The Word that Can Change the World

John the Baptist said:

"In the beginning was the Word 

and the Word was with God 

and the Word was God 

and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us"

If you have read the book of John chapter 1,
you will know that John the Baptist was referring Jesus as "The Word".

Here is what Jesus said in complement to John's statement:

"I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. 

If ye abide in me, I will abide in you. 

If I am in you, My Father also. I and the Father are one".

Jesus is the Word. From the statement above, therefore,

The Word is the Way, the Truth, and the Life,

If you abide in the Word, The Word will abide in you,

If the Word is in you, the Father also. The Word and the Father are one.

Question: What is "THE WORD"?

Answer: I and the Father are One. I, as a Christian, believe that GOD (the Father) is LOVE. Everything becomes clear, THE WORD and LOVE are ONE.

The Word that can change the World is LOVE.

On Self-Acceptance

In its simplest meaning, self acceptance is an attitude where you appreciate your self as who you are and who you are not not minding what other people will say.

How can you love your self less? Trying to be someone else for others to see you, for them to notice and appreciate. You tend to live in a world, a world driven by the thoughts of those people around you, a world where you are just a mere actor/actress. Worst is, you became a slave of your own thoughts. Scared of expressing who you are, fearing the people around you, as if they will look less if you show who you really are.

If you keep on looking at yourself like this, you will never see the beauty in you. You will not see your strengths and you will not accept your fears. And your life will just revolve on the idea of pleasing others.

You need to get out of that storm. You need to stop thinking how others see you or think of you. See your self, the inner persona of you. You are beautiful. You are wonderful. You are not made to please others or to look and live with their thoughts. You are created to live your life with love.   To love your self, your imperfections and your differences. Let go all the pretense and begin embracing what you can't do, who and what you are not. Start living as who you are, gaining strength from the love you've found for your self. I tell you, you are stronger if you accept everything in you. Coz nothing matters as long as you believe, trust and love yourself.

You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. ~Gautama Buddha

What happens after goodbye?

We always look forward on every beginnings and get too excited by the warm feeling it'll bring us. But surely none of us looks forward on what happens after the word goodbye.

Person to person, we are definitely not the same. Each of us sees the world differently and this always goes back to the various philosophies we established within ourselves. These philosophies influenced the way we cope, think, plan and decide. They became a very influential part of our selves.

What happens after goodbye depends on how you see the end of things. Some see it as an opportunity to start again while others see it as the end of everything.

No one could even tell that goodbyes will come easy. They sometimes take a part of us, leaving us empty and broken. But no one had said that this will be the end. It will never be the end if you won't allow it. Things will not happen unless you want it to. What could happen after goodbye? It is only your self who can decide what will happen. No one can ever tell you what will it be. It all depends on you.

To Someone So Young Bound With Fear

Teenagers, just like you, most of the time, let your lives crept into the dark because of fear. You fear failures and commiting mistakes. You tend to be afraid trying things thinking it will never turn out right letting each chance pass by. And at the end, you will find your self sitting on one side of the room regretting what you hadn't take and thinking of the many what ifs running inside your mind.

You let fear eat the most of you. Fear made you doubt what you have, the skills, the knowledge and wisdom you've gained. It's darkness covers the glow inside your heart. The glow that is coming from the passion searing inside. You doubt youself from things you are so much capable of doing. Fear lets you notice every single imperfect detail, every single mistake. It is the very same thing that makes you compare your self to people around you, telling you could never be like them. Fear - a single word, so short but meaning so big it can break the whole of you. And as long as this fear lives inside you and keeps on blinding your heart, you will never appreciate the beauty within you, the strengths you have and the passion burning in you.

But I tell you, you are more powerful than this. You can defeat this monster in you. Thing is, you should stop doubting your self and the things you can do. Open your heart and see the strengths rooted in you. You are strong just like any other person around you or even more. Yes, you can never be like the person beside you or in front of you but you can always be more than them. Never limit your self by what you see and hear. You can do many great things. Do not let them define you for your fears in life. Let them describe you for your strengths and the big things you can make. You may seem too small, but you being so young and vibrant, can always do big things that will not only change what you see of your self but also change how others see you. Just let go all your doubts and fears and start trusting your self and you will make a difference!